OMG!!!

Kev wants to move home to the flat brown state... He wants to move NOW.

(Deep breath)

His parents are failing. He has great parents. His mom is absolutely the best ever.

So I understand why, now, he feels like he needs to be closer to them.

But! But!

I can't just up and move like that! Even if we weren't talking about moving back to the place I fled for my life from 11 years ago... That's not something I can do just up and moving out of nowhere.

And! And! I don't know if I can LIVE there. It almost killed me before.

And now he wants me to go back?

There are some good reasons to go... Top on the list are kev's folks... But my sister is there... The schools are better... I want punkin to go to college there anyway... Cost of living is much less but I would make *almost* as much money there as I do here...

But I seriously can't breathe every time he I think of it.



So... I don't know what's going to happen...

Is he going to move there and leave us here?

Are we going to get divorced?

Are we going to stay married and yet live 2,000 miles away from each other?

If kev goes and I stay will I make it? Can I do this all alone?



I can't breathe.

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