I'm all over the place

I'm kind of relieved to be leaving my job...
but I'm anxious about telling them, and haven't figured out yet when I will let them know.

I'm kind of glad to be sorting through and getting rid of "stuff"...
but I feel overwhelmed about the enormity of the job at hand. Whittling down 11 years of my life into what will fit into boxes feels hard.

I'm very sad about leaving Dr. Miller, my friends, acupuncture-guy, my house...

I'm glad for Punkin that I'm making this decision which will get her into a much, much better school situation.
I'm sad for Punkin that she will have to leave behind some of her dear friends.

The interweb has given me some leads on a new therapist... but I'm very afraid of leaving Dr. Miller and finding someone new. She and I aren't really done yet, it feels all wrong to be breaking things off in the middle like this. What if I can't connect with the new person? What if I never find anyone as good for me as Dr. Miller is? What if where I am now is just where I'm going to be forever?

Money is a worry.... on the one hand I need to work as much extra as possible so that I can afford all the extra expenses that go into a big move.
But I also need time. Time to sort and pack and sleep. Time to get all the loose ends tied up before I am 2,000 miles away from here.

I've got some stained glass projects I want to finish before I go. A small panel for my Kev's mom. I'm halfway done with a making a small panel for each of the "book club girls"...
I've got a project in my head that I haven't even started yet, its a panel with oriental poppies and etched text of the "risk" poem by anais nin. I thought I had plenty of time to work it up to give to her before I quit seeing her, but now it seems that there are only a few weeks left really...